Fight for beauty my treasure

i opened the box, and pulled out a suggestion. "stick an envelope into your journal, and for one week collect things you find on your travels." so in went the envelope.
the colours on it sparked another collage, a purple one. a colour i havent used before.
i had to forcebly pull myself away to stop making more little fine liner drawings on it... i hope i havent ruined it...


fight for beauty, was found on wish jar journal (the link is over there --->)
the envelope i still have from when i was a child, and in school we made paper and envelopes.
there are two buisness cards, one from the babushka shop, and one from some boutique. both in the city.
some butterflies were cut out from a boutiques clothing catelogue.
and the spoons are from whizz fizz packets...

You Cannot Enter Here

WARNING: this is a disclaimer that the image below has nudity. dont like it, dont scroll down...






































drawn while sitting in church, well the beginning of it was anyway.
originally sparked by something the minister said about having to let God into your heart, into every room, and not just selected spaces.
but then is morphed into something else. yes she is naked, correct. very observant of you :P

make of it what you will...

The Angel David

drew a week or two ago.

not much else to say about it. its just a sketch, drawn in pencil, then in ink.
the wings are a bit dodgy...

and his feet are huge!

i dont know why hes sad...

but he looks like a david... dont know why. just does.

Elegance and Beauty.

Boredom...

and i drew this.
used an advertising image of Aishwarya Rai, who is that really gorgeous bollywood actress who is slowly getting into hollywood. (she was in bride and prejudice.)

yes, its just a sketch, and im not 100% happy with it. i should spend more time shading it, and making the arms and hands look like they are actually attatched to the girl :p

the add was for some sort of watch, and the catch phrase for is is "elegance is an attitue".
im an aestheticist. i notice beauty in all.
elegance is only one form of beauty.



drawn., saturday the 27th of may, 2006. in about.. *looks at time* half an hour... so much for a boredom waster...

sam sketch

bored in church yesterday...

actually, i was totally shunted in church yesterday.
i wasnt in the best mood to begin with, and so i just got sadder and sadder.

i was so emo, i made myself laugh on several occasions :P

begininngs...

when began me getting interested in art? it was thanks to a girly anime shown weekday mornings called Sailor Moon. i was drawn in by this clutzy blonde haired girl, and her adventures.
i was enticed by the story line.

i decided to look into it more, and discovered the manga. the story behind the show. the creator, the art. i began to obsess. i drew a lot of sailor moon... some better than the others. my style was primarily anime, manga. (animanga).

im over sailor moon now, but it still is a fond memory of mine. and i owe it a lot. :)

<---- is usagi (serena), aka, sailor moon, as princess selenity (serenity*).

<---- chibi-usa (reeny). she is usagi's daughter who came to tokyo from the future...

chibi chibi**. from the final series, sailor moon stars.

* in japenese, there is no distinguising between the sound for "r" and the sound for "l", so when translated into english, it can be either.

** chibi means little.

I hope this will pass (Cherry Tears)

i dont know what to say about this...


it seems that i can only make these when i am emotional.
i got emotional today, this afternoon, after i had gotten home.

but, after making this, i feel much better.
things seem to resolve themself over time...



the dear god prayer is by michael leunig, from the book i bought of his.
the cherries come from a (king sized) cherry ripe bar, the border is cut up from some post card i got in some shop (in GPO*), the red card is for some champagne bar (also in GPO).
the blue patterened paper is from the back of a NGV catalougue, and the rings and the broken hair-tie were found last week. one at the bus stop, one at the lake.

the blue writing is my own. breifly spurted out on my (other, real) blog.


thursday the 18th of may, 2006.


*GPO= general post office, is in melbourne city, and has been converted into a shopping mall. the second level is full of (expensive) botiques, with beautiful clothes...

lacking...

im lacking in ideas...

lacking in creativity.
lacking in motivation, in everything.

what do you want to see...

i do these, collage things, to express myself, how i feel.
but recently, i.. i guess i havent been feeling any emotions strongly enough...


a push in the right direction anyone?




(ps, if you happen to find any nice packets of sugar, that you want to give me, cause i collect them :P)

Ignite a Flame

done last night after a day of wondering what to make...

i maybe got a bit carried away with the burning bit, and now my study smells like burnt paper. its the tin foil easter egg wrappers that suprised me though...

i, i guess my relationship with God hasnt been one of the best over the past couple of months. mainly due to laziness on my behalf. and a complete lack of passion...

the writing is my own, the bible verse is one of the earlier psalms (15, or something), red paper, yellow hand made paper, a post card for womens rights cut up, a buisness card cut up, and some eater egg wrappers.

sunday 14th of may, 2006.

Kids Klub random drawing to ease boredom

just a little sketch i drew during bible time at kids klub.
my, self appointed, job is the sign in table, which means, i have somewhere to draw while everyone else is on the floor! three cheers for me :P...



there are lots of mistakes, but you cant rub out with pen...


the kids at kids klub always want me to draw pictures for them. its cute really :P...

art runs in the family.

this isnt a blog post about me. this is about my sister.

she is older, and is the musical one. the introvert.

but, she is also artistic (comes from being a melancholic... yeah. just yet another one of those personality type things.)

the study has become a mini art studio, paint, brushes, turps. my own paper cuttings everywhere. pencil rubbings. and some nice art works being produced.

the following are not mine. they are my sisters. but i thought i would share them with you anyway, cause hey. why not.

ive been looking at them, and getting a little jealous really...

Unworthy in Red

WARNING: MATURE CONTENT

dont look at this, if it may offend you...
i see it as art...
































dont know what to write about this. it made its way from my head, heart, onto the page.

perhaps... perhaps.

females are not supposed to just be bodies. not just be sex images for men to abuse, to steal.

we have souls, we have spirits. we are not just our bodies.

and yet. that reality is there. the one that whispers to us that if we are not desired physically, then we are worthless.

so we allow men to use us, hoping in vain to gain the love we so desire.

it never works though. we are left feeling dirty, and used, and unworthy. but it is a sick horrible cycle that brings us back into that same place, where we give in again.




the words my own random spurtings.
done while procrastinating a psychology report, monday the 8th of may, 2006.

I am the vine, You are the branches.

drew in church yesterday morning.

its symbolic, and sorta surreal. its just a sketch, but full of meaning.
there is a throne in my heart, but who is on it?
me, Him.
will i bear good fruit, if he is not on it? will i bear fruit at all?
there is a vine consuming me. reaching into me. shall i let it?



the lyrics in the top corner are from an Evanescene song (Lies, origin version)







john 15:1-10 says
"The Vine and the Branches 1"I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. 3You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

5"I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. 8This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

9"As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love

tears and fears

i just want to cry, and cry and cry..

and i dont even know why.

i have this issue with fear... and.. and i cant change it.

i need to look to god for help, but sometimes i even fear to do that.

ive always had this, this crutch, what would life be like without it... scarey...

the middle quote is by Keri Smith, her blog (wish jar journal) is over there...---->

confusing statistics

so, you think life is confusing... try doing statistics...!

seriously, i only semi understand it. all these symbols, all these equations. arrgghhh!


quickly done, grey lead-ed, then inked, then coloured, then painted the symbols and equations.




(yes, that is supposed to be me... not very realistic, i know :P)



wednesday th 3rd of may, 2006.

Goodbye Gush...

i honestly didnt think i would get so upset about it, but i was. well, not really upset, but i did cry, i couldnt stop the tears.
its silly i know, but i really loved gush.
perhaps what i loved more was the people who made up gush, who if it didnt exist, i would never have met.

its amazing how little grey i had. a lot of orange, most of which didnt make it onto this page. so i improvised. it needed to be orange and grey. the gush colours...


the quote around the tree is from a song, 'Better is One Day', and ive seen it credited to a lot of people, matt redman, chris tolmin, but the version i have is from a WOW worship music cd.

the other quote, on the white, is by Keri Smith. seemed appropriate. not all changes are bad, not all changes are good, but whatever, we need to have the ability to be able to change. or we die (so to speak).

the other writing is just my own rambleings, as i like to include them...

those heards are actually silver and shiney, but that doesnt really show. i dont understand the relevance of the tree, though im sure i could make something up.


Tuesday 2nd may, 2006.

(ps, that "i miss you" is actually supposed to be "i'll miss you".. but oh well.. :p)

What are we doing about it?

i hate the pressure this society puts on me. to be thin to be attractive. to force myself to conform to the image of beauty it throws at me at every turn.
and yet, i hate it, i still want to be a part of it.

why do i so long to be loved, to be wanted?

it is my fear that i wont be loved, that no one will think im good enough to love...

and i know that god loves me, which is great, but...

sometimes i just doesnt feel enough.

i need to change. i need to get out of this.

the picture is called 'what are we doing about it?'

the quote/ prayer thingy on the blue paper is By Leunig, the other writing is just my ramblings, the bars are from a dance dj's advertising card, and the other clippsings are from a 'Big Issue' i have.

April 29th, 2006...

Un-Anesthestised Happiness

so Oprah says something thats helpful...

nah, i love Oprah.

this was done after some stuff over one weekend where i went from being full of joy, to being horribly sad and not even able to create art, and then i got over it.

i woke up, and was happy. the day was grey and cold, but i was filled with joy.

has, yellow tissue paper, yellow card, yellow home made paper which i made back in year 4. quote by oprah, butterflies, a plait with beads, and some clothes shop in GPO's buisness card.

last monday, april the 24th, 2006.

sunset love

i was going through the photo draw last night, through all the old photos of my parents when they were teenagers, and i discovered this gem out of the lot.i really love this photo, but i dont think that i have done the rest of the peice any justice.


has a page of Song of Song in the back ground, the photo was taken November 1982, in perth (i think), the corny love quote says "love is a gift of ones inner most soul, to another, so both can be whole." by somone called Tea Rose...


April 16, 2006.. ish...

Reaction to Sad Events

the first i did in my new art journal. A5, which i like.

some sad stuff was happening on Gush (R.I.P as of tomorrow) and i didnt know how to handle it. i couldnt say anything to those involved that wold help, so i went to God, through my art...


on it is Psalm 42, from verse 5 onwards.
and my own writing, in red.
tears out of tissue paper, easter egg wrapper, and a cutting from a christian magazine i got when i graduated.


10th of april, 2006.

Help Me O Lord

this is personal.
this is more personal than anything else up here.

done wednesday night (the 19th of april)...
all i can say is that i expressed the emotions i was feeling at the time.

i fear several things in my life, and rejection is way up there.
when creating this, that was one of the biggest thoughts in my head...


i actually rather like this piece...



an advertising card, cut up, definitions from the closest dictionary, the writing behind a prayer type thing to God, the red writing, a plea.

yes, i know, there is a spelling mistake. ignore, not ignor...

wednesday 19th, april, 2006.

Deeply Superficial

the very first i did... well, recently of these collages anyway. :P

sorry about the bad quality. i only just found out my scanner could work when i scanned this, and so i didnt fix it up much in PS.

im not exactly sure what this means either...

Verse from Isaiah 1, another verse from.. it might be zephaniah, or somewhere.

the court listings, from the section of the Age that never gets read, easter egg wrappers, something from a magazine, and a buisness card for a cafe thing out at chataeu Yering.

9th of april, 2006.

Blue Praises

im not sure why i made this, or indeed, what it means... i think that there is something missing, but im not sure what it is.
the red seems a little out of place, but maybe its supposed to.

it just seemed to come out, with out any real planning...




has a verse from lamentations, the lyrics from an old Hillsong song (all things are possible), a broken CD, paint chips, a MET card (train, bus and tram ticket) and a bit of a buisness card for a chocolate shop...



21st of April, 2006

Asking for Help...

another late night staying up, worrying about what Im supposed to be doing with my life.

the course im in atm, its interesting enough, but i dont have any passion for it.
so my want to do well in it is very low...


so i cried out to God, asking for help... again.


psalm 61, i think. green easter egg wrappers, something i wrote, a picture i drew, and some circles cut out from a random magazine.




ANZAC day, april 25th, 2006.

Alluring Alice

One of the first that i actually made.

im not sure if it has a meaning, or not, and the picture quality isnt as good as the newer ones, becuase i am learning how to use Photo shop CS2.

i found an old alice in wonderland picture book, and decided to cut it up.

it has isaiah 3 (or somewhere there) in it, a cadburies chocolate wrapper, easter egg wrappers, something from the melbourne magazine in the Age, and from a card i got at chataeu Yering.

and yes, i realise that tempt actually has a 't' at the end, i just forgot that here... :P

9th of april, 2006.

Love Filled World

kinda rather happy when i made this...
it took me a while too.

i wasnt sure how to make it, and even now, it just doest look right.


the picture is from an old Alice in Wonderland book i had as a child, the black writing is from a song by Aqualung (brighter than sunshine), easter egg wrappers on the side, another quote by adele basheer.

the clouds are because i saw these absolutly amazing clouds friday. i mean, beautiful, and i was just really happy.
the world was beautiful, and i was happy


April 21st, 2006.

What does the Lord require of you?

micah 6:8 is labeled, minus that line.
the other writing is a parapsrase of Isaiah 1:17ff... or something...

i look at so much of the 'worship' services in my own church, and other churches and i sometimes seriously wonder where God is...
isaiah comes back to haunt me, but yet, i get overwhelmed at the task of actually doing something, and i fall prey to the selfishness thats so comfortable...

this is a reminder, to me, to do something...


i cut up my make poverty history band for this too...

May 1st, 2006.

Welcomes and Prizes

welcome to my, err... art blog...

at the request of mister Clayton McIntosh, the first, i have created this place...

please, do comment...


i'm also over at Deviant Art, which is where i have most of my stuff currently...

i'll get it here...